Dear Nick,

I think I have been writing this letter for the last 4 months. Funny thing is, I can't believe it has been 4 months. Maybe that is because you have only been home for a week and a half. I can't believe you are actually home. The day I picked you up, it felt so surreal. I am not sure that it feels real even now. Bringing you home was the happiest day of my life. I really still can't believe you are here.

Right now, you are asleep in your crib. You absolutely refuse to sleep in the basinett. You really like your crib. When it is time for bed, you like to watch the aquarium crib toy that is on the side of your crib. It lights up and plays music. You love it. You turn your head toward it the minute I put you in your crib and wait for it to come on and sing you to sleep.

You spend your days alternating between the swing, bouncy seat, being held, and sleeping in your crib. Your favorite of those is being held. If you had your way, you would have someone hold you every second. And there is a long line of people who would volunteer for that job!

I may be biased, but you have the cutest face! I love how expressive you are. You raise your eyebrows when you see something that interests you. You certainly have your mad face down, when someone doesn't pick you up when you think it is time. Your sad face is so cute, I can't help but smile sometimes when you cry. You suck your bottom lip in and have the saddest little face. You still make the "O" face that I have grown to love. Now, I tell you that when you make that face, that is an invitiation for me to kiss you.

You have certainly taught me how hard being a mom can be. More important you have taught me how much love I can give. I never stop thanking God that I can hold you everyday, or kiss you every night. I love that I can be there when you cry all the time instead of just for a few hours a day. Even in the middle of the night, seeing your face, and giving you a kiss, makes it all worth it.

The last week and a half have been fantastic, exhausting, but fantastic. If this week and a half has brought me this much joy, I can't wait to see what the rest of your life brings!

I love you munchkin man,

Mommy